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[Sep. 12th, 2009|06:54 pm] |
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I haven't posted here in a long while. In fact I wouldn't know where to begin. Something strange happened when I logged in, I had a mass emotional drop. My heart tensed, my breathing shallowed, I got shakey. I haven't been here in a long time. I thought about using this but I think I am gonna switch to a second account I have. I guess If you wish to follow me email me t acidica6@yahoo.com and I will add yah. I just dont see a reason to use this anymore. |
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| hmmm |
[Mar. 24th, 2009|04:01 am] |
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Its strange not knowing how to bridge the gap in friendships. I just assume if your having nothing to do with me you want nothing to do with me. Maybe I am wrong. I just dont want to embarress myself by chasing someone who doesnt seem like they want me around. Oh well theres little point to this post. Just was told that some one was shocked I forgave a friend who did something really hurtfull to me. I forgave them cause they asked for forgiveness in a way I knew they wouldnt try to hurt me like that again. |
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| Holy moleculer gastronomy batman |
[Oct. 25th, 2008|12:31 pm] |
I picked up the Alinia cook book a couple weeks ago, its fucking amazing. It has all the techniques well discribed, chemicals and where to find them, equiptment. It also has an interesting description on how to approach deconstructionism.
James Porter at tapino has invited me to do a staging and expermentation day. Get there god awefully early, break out the chemicals and tools and see what we can make. I just hope I can keep up.
I also picked up a hand smoker for 13 dollars, found a supplier in town cause they are kinda fragil, and has one hell of a learning curve. Luckily I have had a lot of success.
My friend Scott is sleeping with the executive chef of ASU and hes looking for a sous chef. I got a letter of rec from Robert, and Scotts eatin a bit of my cooking. Plus the guy specificly mentioned how working at the builtmore would be a big in. Oh and look i spent a year there soooo I have alot of faith in my chances. It would be nice to finally have the title of chef, plus I am ready to really start my career.
So yeah cooking ftw and stuff. |
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| Life to this point |
[Oct. 18th, 2008|07:59 pm] |
Alot has changed, way alot. I actualy did know I would lose most of my friends when Kt left me. I told her that before. So yeah it happened. It hurts to know that the people I thought loved me had no problems turning their backs at the first chance given. But thats water right?
I havent been doing much but working and hanging with Jenn. For the ones who know Jenn I guess shes my g/f. I say I guess because we havent said we are committed but we have hinted we arnt seeing anyone else. I am totaly falling for her. Shes smart, artisting, super hot, quirky in a good way. She did help me make the desision to get my nip pierced. Went out dropped 40, stuck a needle through me while little gay boys watched then went home. Well Jenns house. I havent slept at my apt in 2 months its basicly become a very expensive storage shed.
Works been bad, way to many hours. 50 last week, possibly 55 this week. I defanitly am feeling it.
Lost alot of weight, neil always mentions it. My leather jacket fits again. My bondage pants all fit right. Now I just need new work pants. Other then that just cruising. Trying to get things fixed as fast as possible. Trying to find my new way. |
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| What a grand fucking time |
[Sep. 26th, 2008|03:36 pm] |
Last night I was assualted, insulted, and threatened by some one I called one of my best friends in the middle of missiourri and still have no clue why. Luckily I have found a way home.
I guess this is how pacifists operate. They turn with out warning or provication, punch you then threaten to leave you on the other side of the country if you dont like what they did to you. The only thing I could gather from his drunken slurs when i confronted him on why he just attacked me was that he was mad some one called me in the middle of the night a couple nights before while we were in a hotel and that i fell asleep while a short cd was on and he couldnt reach the cds to change it. This is the reasons he gave me for suddenly visciously attacking me. If theres something else I probably wont ever know. But yeah I am packing right now and calling a couple favors from friends to get enough money to get home. |
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| Yeah and just tell me nothings changed |
[Sep. 22nd, 2008|12:10 am] |
Discribing my life right now may be detrimental to some. I have found some one I can really click with for atleast the time being. I know I have neglected other friends for her company but she has so much in common, a kindred spirit if you will. And the fact shes total eye candy doesnt hurt either.
Past my new china doll I am leaving for a week of road life with Loki. Going to be playing in springfield at a really choatic event. Hell we still cant guarantie we are even gonna get to play. Then we go to Branson and try to get arrested. Do txt call and message me much on the road. I actualy tend to get lonely on tour when the downtime sets in.
Job is starting to get wierd. I am getting alot of bullshit lumped on me for stuff I had no hand in or control of.
Oh holy fucking moleculer gastronomy batman! James Porter of Tapino told me he wants to lock ourselves into the kitchen soon and experement with chems and processes. Like really fucking seriously wants to. Jenn took me there friday as a thanx for cooking for her thursday, and taking her to Delux. Jenn is really into haute cuisine, so we talk food and eat alot.
Also I picked up a handsmoker from Graffitti shop for 13 dollars and it rules. I think its the same kind Richard Blaise used on Top Chef.
Well theres a little update on my life.
Peace. |
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| Not here for long |
[Sep. 11th, 2008|07:13 pm] |
At Kaylas house using her intranets. Mines still not hooked up. Probably wont be before Masque and Veil.
Still alive, lifes actualy on a very steady forward momentum. Made alot of new friends and a few new lovers.
Will take this oppurtunity to inform "former" friends they dont need to wear a mask around me. Dont want to talk to me anymore, dont smile at me, dont wave at me. I can walk away with out drama. I have enough going on in my life to not need to focus on you so please feel free to not need to pretend to still be my friend.
I am very busy but will try to include you in my life if you try to include me in yours.
Peace. |
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| Hmmm |
[Aug. 4th, 2008|06:15 pm] |
I was the one thrown away how come I am the bad person for trying to move on with my life?
I am told I never loved her because I didnt let my self distory myself. I had been doing that for the last 4 months. I finally stopped. I finally just let it go.
Yes I met some one really cool, yes shes young. Oh well. Her friend told me she was older before we met. I never bothered to ask. I found out after we started really seeing each other she was only 18, but when you sit up all night talking about F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Ramones, and Mark Twain you tend to assume some one is older.
The first girl I had any physical contact with (kissing at a club) was 37 so dont worry, I am not going all Lee, this happens to be the exeption.
I am getting an apt next month.
I am gonna try to get my licends back pretty quick.
I am moving pretty fast latley. I dont want to spend alot of time thinking. I have been able to cope very well and I am sorry if I seem to have a full schedual, I do. I gotta keep well distracted for just a little while longer.
If people want to hang out I am gonna be regulerly at Groggys on mondays, Homme on wed, Tranz on fridays. These keep me pretty well grounded and give me time to really find myself again. I dont want to do alot of deep talking about my pain. I dont want to get into dirt slinging. I am not going to say anything bad about Kt because we spit up. She needed to go on with out me and I am comfortable with that. All I want is to not be told I am a bad person because I exepted that.
Works over, I am gonna try to get a little rest.
I am still here, I am just moving faster then a comet can fly away... |
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| How the fuck am I so busy |
[Jul. 29th, 2008|09:02 am] |
I have been crazy busy. Josh, chip, sheri and tasha always have something planned to do. Some sorta distraction. A party here, a club here, a night playing pool with sage at Groggys... Damn its kinda neat going out again. And surprisingly cheap. Groggys cost me about 2 dollars in quarters total. Granted we didnt get any drinks but it was a blast..and I got to meet Sages new squeeze...for the 10th or so time. She seems totaly sweet though so go sage.
Joshes roomate Gnome wants me to cook for her. I need to get some things from AJs if I am gonna impress.
Josh has been letting me borrow his car to go to work. Hes been carpooling with Gnome. I have the bus route figured out but havent had to use it and I like that. Its too damn hot. I will probably bribe justin with breakfast any day I dont have Joshes car to use. Hes up and usually not busy when i have to be at work.
Thanx everyone whos been making sure I am safe, or helping to keep me moving at high speed. your making the transition to my new life surprisingly easy.
Super big thanx to Josh...Hes been fucking amazing. Lucky for him I know a couple ladies who like big black brothers... |
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| Talks at work |
[Jul. 25th, 2008|02:01 am] |
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Today at work I brought up the question of Sous Chef. Asked Robert why we dont have one now that he spends so much time out of the kitchen hes not catching the mistakes cooks are making. He said he needed one for sure, and that the two other cooks have been doing so poorly that he couldnt trust them in the position. For a while now I have been assuming the lead line cook position. Doing the extra work, cleaning up peoples mess ups. and commanding the line during both services. I think its pretty much certain if the position is created it would be mine. A year in the lower management position would be exellent, giving me a lot of open doors at other restaurants. So yeah a little good news. Now I just need to talk to Brian about it. |
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